Niched

There's proving to be no virtue in being a loner.  Having been carrying a mental picture of being a niche dweller since right out of college, that sort of business would be the natural preferred mode of spending the day.  It means a job as in 9 to 5, in an office. That lets me keep people at arm's length.  Why is this important, it's important because there's being a loner by choice and then there's being a loner by choice not so much. Not having a job you see yourself in is pretty much being a loner by choice not so much. Now taking that circumstance as a challenge is doing it the hard way.
And a lot of people are being turned into loners by choice not so much, and not doing it the hard way.  Not seeing that circumstance as a challenge which it's noone's place to judge them, the fact is not seeing this circumstance as a challenge, you've only got a window to decide to and after that if you still don't it's like interest piling up.  There is a separate place that people not seeing it as a challenge exist in; it's a place the mind goes to.  And they aren't ever coming back to anything like what you say is your normal place.  The answer is the thing I've felt and oriented this and a bunch of other work toward since 2009 when becoming a loner by choice not so much.